Tuesday 14 June 2011

I don't know what to write.

I thought it was probably about time I posted an update, but I've been staring at the screen for a few minutes thinking about what on earth I could write.

I've gone to my Monday ceili class every week. Occasionally we co-teach, other times like last night I just participate. I'm not at all confident with teaching. I don't even speak loudly enough! Perhaps it's because they're an established group already and I'm the new girl, I just feel a bit out of my depth and I much prefer just dancing along rather than teaching along. That's all I expected when we joined - I just wanted to learn by dancing. They've been very good to me by allowing me to teach but I didn't expect it at all.

We've been working on the Cross Reel for a wee while which is ace because I'd never danced it before. Lead, Extended Sides, Full Chain, Gentlemen Interlace, Back to Back, Exchange Places, Figure of Eight and Ring, Circle Round and Hands Across, Finish. I do remember things!

Solo dancing, very apathetic at the moment. I'm so injured and although I'm having physio for various things, it seems to be making other areas worse. For example my Achilles aren't playing up anymore, but instead the outer calf is killing me. My arches aren't improving and I sprained my toe the week before last whilst practising solos so I haven't done any practice since then. My leg that nearly killed me is so weak.

I think dancing's making me quite sad at the moment because I truly thought I could get there, however long it took, but it seems I can't.

1 comment:

  1. Hi. I just came across your site today and you're doing some great work! I believe when we want something so much and have the courage to go for it with all our strengths sometimes we reach a limit that may be scaring for us, at least for some days... Just give yourself a time, can you? Make a conscious pause, get much better, keep dreaming and inspiring yourself on steps, visualize your dances as it really helps to improve them for real, and please give yourself time to mature everything since you decided to take the tcrg! If you believed so much you could do it, if you could already learn and achieve so much, and even help in teaching classes, i believe you can do it. Unless you don't really want to. But if in your most inner being that is a dream for you that you'd like to fulfill, then go for it. Calmly although...Respect your own body and your inner time. Please feel free to email me at adancairlandesa@gmail.com. Would love to hear from you. Best wishes, Fabiola from Portugal

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